Environmental factors trigger us in more ways than one, influencing our choices, moods, thoughts and habits- effecting therefore our state of consciousness and our astral body. Our aura is effected by the aura of the other thing- whether a person place or set of conditions- vibration does matter because it’s everything. So whether we have a good reason or not, it doesn’t change the fact that a bad marriage- is going to bring us down vibrationally. This isn’t about blame or adjustment, it’s not about being stronger or more compassionate- it’s about the reality that we can barely carry ourselves forward- so stop pretending anything useful can occur between you and your distant partner if you just pray a little harder. Yes your karma got you there and your awareness can get you out- awareness carried by courage and committed intention to do that which is in the “benefit of all” which is bigger than your little family and world- it’s about the frequency you are able to generate in the optimal condition- all yogis knew that- and that’s why they didn’t “hang out” it stops all progression into the light that is not the artificial light of conditioning, circumstance, imagined duty or the other “needing you.” Who needs who? Ask yourself that once you start making your child the reason for your bondage- you are the reason and so was your mother- and it’s a trickling down effect that no amount of buddhist meditation or hindu mantras will change. You’re living in fear, you’re the child, you are the one who needs to hide- and so why blame anyone but yourself? And even then, confession or self flagellation won’t help or change a thing. You set the example in subtle ways- and in not so subtle ways- and this example you set encourages those around you to follow the lead. Make yourself the leader and agent for change. Take the responsibility for rebirth upon yourself and not contingent on a bigger bank account and more self confidence “one day” excuses excuses excuses and in the meanwhile you’re a karmic puppet- and you now have others you are influencing and so maybe ask yourself, “down deep below the surface appearance of things, what am I really contributing to this person, child, condition or environment?” Well, I already have the answer for you….the main thing you are contributing is fear. No wonder you’re so anxious all the time. Denial is worse than acknowledgement and fear is worse than anything- because it’s the noose of that ancestral demon right around your compliant neck- the implication is, “don’t you dare break out. You’re caught in the karmic chain of command and you’ve got a role to fill and you are as perfectly stuck as those who came before you.” And it doesn’t matter if you do it slightly different or even with a new age, spiritual or alternative flair. You’re in the “karmic deepening groove” and that’s all that counts. Nobody really changes, they only adapt their “knowing that they really need to” to a “better way” of expressing the same karma- more disguised- that makes them feel more “progressive” as a clever way of pretending they aren’t caught like their mother or father or whoever was. But you are- and it’s going to take a “do or die” mentality- a putting all your cards on the table- a sacrifice of your most beloved on the top of the mountain- it’s going to take some proof that you mean it. Stop faking, it doesn’t convince me or your karmic hell that you’re making any leeway at all…it just helps you feel a little less panicked as you tip toe down the dark hallway at night on the way to your room…just another family skeleton passing the closet one more time-pictures of grandma and grandpa hung on the walls in the shadow of “don’t you forget about me.” Feelings don’t lie. Something is wrong in your life that no amount of “do gooder” energy elsewhere will do. You’re living a terrible lie at the expense of not only yourself but all sentient beings caught in the same noose- and there are a lot. And you keep reading this blog and ignoring the truth. You pray to kali or avalokateshwara and yet fail to see that you’re not taking the “compassionate action that cleanses impurity and delusion” at all. You’re hiding behind the hand and face of the deity like you hide behind your child or blame your arrogant husband…the truth is, you’re in the cog- you’re a part of that system-prayer doesn’t separate you, it excuses your awareness you from your negligence- it dulls your consciousness because you’ve masked the truth with a prayer and this isn’t good..it’s called spiritual bypassing and it doesn’t work. It is a hell worse than any- where you become the “one trying,” the “one who can save another,” or the “selfless martyr” -sorry, it’s more like the fearful, selfish and chronically deluded baby. You aren’t doing anything but using spirituality as a numbing agent, using the deity as a way to dull fear, using the do gooder mommy as a way to avoid the deeper responsibility to yourself and your child, as well as your family and creation. You spiritually bypass and then feel sad and pray for all the “women who suffer” but you’re the one putting more helplessness, denial and suffering into the cosmic pot for the future assurance that more women will “suffer helplessly and in denial” why don’t you wake up and stop using god and the divine mother as a bandaid to the life you won’t fix and do something that is actually genuinely compassionate and break out of your lie? Money money money. Fear. Security. More fear. More money. Ok fine. You’re going to die and you won’t get another chance like you have right now- stop eating your anger and rage for breakfast- it only makes you sick and weak willed. Stop putting the answer out there. Stop being defeated daily- it’s not spiritual- it’s a self created, self generated, self fulfilling prophecy and it’s hurting everyone you surround yourself with to keep these dark ancestral walls intact- high walls and silent wails, haunted and hunted and no more tears that even matter- even blood turns to ice eventually. Stop whoring yourself to this god forsaken prison. Stop being a servant to fear while you pray to kali. Stop reciting the vow you don’t really mean. Spiritual bypassing is an addiction and an insidious way to avoid necessary changes. Spiritual bypassing means that you think you can avoid practical transformation by “being spiritual” and yet nothing changes. You don’t act on anything. You must take action and stop using god to stay stuck. It’s a sin that hides even it’s own sinning. These karmas are intent on living through you at whatever the cost. We all must start somewhere and peer into the scariness of genuine spiritual practice- the alchemy required causes great discomfort- which is due to the authentic shedding of old skin and a constant transforming of conditions that no longer apply. The veil needs to be ripped away. There is a tear in the fabric and you can’t hold it together anyway no matter how hard your ego tries. It’s not about holding on to a situation that, through your spiritual aspirations and purification you will overcome and so therefore remain in this worn out situation and uplift your surroundings- nice try again at bypassing- but no- and it’s also not about resisting the call to change and instead “praying” so it’s all ok. No. It’s not about comparing yourself to people worse off than you and so letting yourself off the hook once again. No. It’s not about meditating more, being more “loving” no no no- whatever you say, no- however you twist the situation to make it seem doable- my answer is no. Do what you fear to do- Yes. Be a true yogi and recognize self sabotage and clinging is due to fear and a perverse attachment to the familiar no matter how destructive- and then do what you must do to change the situation to reflect the new, clearer you- starting today- anything less is just perpetuation of the negative karma that got you there in the first place- there is no exhaustion to this karma- and don’t be fooled that you can make it through the transition while bearing upon your back such heavy psychic and emotional weight- the cataclysmic times require a loosening of the demon’s noose, a cutting away of the baggage that causes the energetic reactions that bind you- and no, you cannot dig yourself out by fasting- sorry, that won’t work either- because it’s not about ignoring, numbing, excusing or adapting- it’s about taking
a stand for the sake of all to contribute to freedom, personal responsible and therefore liberation from samsara in the only way possible- by exacting a long needed change- which means a facing of our fears, every one of them, once and for all- and this takes a total surrendering, an absolute trusting and stopping of the useless pretense that you already have surrendered- really, to what? Being an abused housewife or a half ass alcoholic taking it “one day at a time?” Come on, you know better and you don’t fool me. Stop hiding like you’re not invincible- and stand up and roar like a lion and get out of your cage!
I’m with you❤️