India, ash, flame and flower. Be with me.


I know I’m trying to part the Red Sea. But we have to rise from this inertia and despondency. We can’t go on pretending it’s ok because it isn’t. That’s why the Karmapa is here. That’s why Jesus died and Buddha grew roots under the tree. We came as the tear of Avalokateshvara. I take it upon myself to remember and be brave in the midst of this earth’s suffering. I need your help. I cannot do it alone is the truth. I have sacrificed and surrendered all that I could. I gave up my house, my dogs, my car. I gave up secure relationship, income. I gave up family prisons that are always a reliable net to fall in. I gave it all up for God. For faith. Put to the test. I was just meditating and praying to Avalokateshvara for help. I was told to ask for his help through you. You are the carrier of his light and one of his countless compassionate arms. I have faith. I have nothing but your arms to carry me- and I’m not just saying this, it’s true. I have left the USA in search of answers. There is a calling. I have been riding on the wave of annihilation for many years now and I’ve finally hit the shore. I am all alone in this basic way and yet am lifted by your love. I bow in reverence to you all for what you’ve already given. Time is limited. I am moving in a big way and it’s unknown but determined. I feel the big heart pulling us together as many pieces broken and yet filling that space of Mother Light on this earth. The feminine has been breeched. The systems- including “spiritual” are inevitably collapsing. I am not a savior or messiah so don’t get me wrong. I am simply a wounded woman at this time on earth, in this body, listening to the sound of the big song- behind, before and underneath us all. Rising, creating. Destroying, dancing. Breathing the breath of life versus death. I will do anything for you. Because I know you are me. I know I am the homeless crippled man I gave money to on the street corner. I know this and we all suffer equally without each other’s compassion. So I write this to say please help me in a very practical way. Please donate. I am on the way to India searching for a way. I have left Bhagavan Das in Guatemala and am financially supporting him. I am funding this cause on my own and I have virtually nothing. I am doing this because I have to- for myself and for any of you who resonate with the calling. I am not searching for gurus or learning about Hinduism. I am not preaching Buddhism or trying to be your teacher. I am your friend and I just need your help. It’s pretty simple. I am going to start holding retreats in India. Affordable, meaningful retreats. Personal, intimate gatherings that go deep into the warmth of the ash. I need funds to secure properties. I need funds to fund this mission. I will do anything for you. I will take your picture and float it in the tiny flame and flower boats that are released into the Ganges with a prayer. I will burn your picture to ashes and blow it into the Ganges in Varanasi. I will bury your picture under the Bodhi tree in Bodhgaya. I will cut out your head and give it to Kali. I will pray for you. I will offer your written prayers into the Ganges. I will make magic on your behalf. I will take your picture and prayers to the Monlam. I will seriously and earnestly, in person pray for you at the holiest of holy sites. If you send me a picture of yourself, a letter- anything. I will come through for us all. I need your help and financial support. Any offering large or small, all helps. Any donation given can be applied if you choose to the Sept 4-15 India retreat- or any retreat. One reason why I am doing this is because it goes against my nature to ask for anything as I have always felt myself to be an island- but life has taught me otherwise- and so I surrender at the mercy of your feet because I know the great white Guru is in you. And I pray you will receive my words with understanding and not be offended. Also, I will write daily from India on the blog posting pictures and letting you know how it’s going. I will put up videos made in India on YouTube. I know it’s all no big deal in a way but it’s all I can do. I really do need you- in the way a flower cannot grow without the sunlight. OM MANI PADME HUM.

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This will make my efforts possible and generate the compassion of the deity. This will help Bhagavan Das who needs you as he cannot travel anymore. This will help me do anything I can for you. Practically speaking everything takes funds to manifest, it’s just the facts. And heaven and earth are two arms on the same body. My heart you hold as his teaching to me. When the Karmapa looked into my eyes and blessed me my life forever changed. And I saw Avalokateshvara -and I knew women, even me- have been imprisoned and it’s not the fault of men. It’s just that we forgot each other and when I saw him on that day larger than any god could ever be- I remembered Him as Her. That is who we are. The tears of His love. Her body. We are not separate from anything or each other. I offer my tiny life to this boundless, mind boggling compassion. It makes no sense and I am crazy like the moon. I know we are made of a tangible dream. A wild dream inside a blazing light that we together created. The Mother Light of his shimmering tears on moon water is the path. Homeward bound back to the star is the flame. My devotion in your hands is the flower. Please help me. I am sincerely taking action and not advantage. I need your prayers, blessings and I really need literal donations – these offerings will make the impossible possible. The invincibility of compassion is that we all embody Her melting heart space and that is why we are One. I offer all that I am to this mystical fire.

India, ash, flame and flower. Be with me.
Sharada Devi

26 thoughts on “India, ash, flame and flower. Be with me.”

  1. Both you and Bhagavan Das have brought Jivamukti Yoga Jersey City, Bob and myself such love. Our thoughts, prayers and love are with you both. I be happy to help any way I can.
    Love Austin

  2. Dear Sri Sharada Devi, I’ll never forget and I’ll always be grateful for the satsang in Asheville with you and Bhagavan Das a few years ago. And I’m very grateful for your many videos and your blog, they have helped me so much along the way. I’m not sure if I will ever make it to India, although I desperately want to go. I wish I could be part of these retreats. However, what I can do is send you lots of positive thoughts, prayers and a small donation. I wish I could do more and I will do more when spirit provides the means. Just know you are an inspiration and you are making a difference. My words are not very poetic but my intentions are true. Sending lots of love and light. Blessings on your journeys and retreats in India. I’ll chant a Hanuman Chalisa dedicated to you and Bhagavan Das today.

    Jai Gurudev,

      1. I made a donation today on Shivratri. Please pray for my healing of psoriasis. It’s been a very tough winter on it, regardless of diet and sadhana. Thank you and blessings.
        Jai Gurudev, Andrew

  3. Sharada Devi!! All my love and hugs and kisses go out to you and everybody else going through trials and tribulations in these times. I am here in Rishikesh and wanted to let you know that I can put you up in a very nice room here in Tapovan. A place to call home to get situated in until you decide to move on further. I would also love to make a donation to create an ashram hear that is devoted to LOVE and The Mother Light!! I am here until the 20th ! 🙏🏻🐒🕊🌟🌺🐂

    Ganga Ma is waiting for us all to wash away all this gack that clogs up our true destiny as the real pure gold souls that we are!

    Hare Krishna
    Hare Krishna
    Krishna Krishna
    Hare Hare
    Hare Rama
    Hare Rama
    Rama Rama
    Hare Hare

    1. Dear Kelsey,
      I deeply appreciate this offering and your donation.
      Is Tapovan near Rishikesh? Thank you so much!
      I’ll email you. Let’s meet in Rishikesh – will be there on feb 8

  4. I am with you, dear One. I love to donate to you and anything that helps you, helps US all. OH SO HUM.
    Om Mani Padme Hum.
    I am on the fence about India…but want to help in anyway I can for YOU to go there…and help to take care of Bhagavan Das.
    Om Mani Padme Hum.

    With total and complete love and admiration…and ADORATION….

    1. As always you are the giving mother moonlight.
      I do love you and want you to come to India.
      I will set it ALL up- just get to the Delhi airport and you will be taken and delivered to Rishikesh. So easy and your life forever a part of the Mother river…

  5. When I came out of the temple of silence, I was born into the holy land of India. I went to see a sufi saint named rayhanna in New Delhi. She kissed me on the forehead and awakened the Guru in me and then we sat in total silence for about an hour. She said go to rishikesh you are a sadhu. I got on a bus and arrived in Rishikesh ( the matted hair of the Rishi ) in a storm of rain and thunder. When I came to the door of the Shivananda Ashram it was all dark and candle lit. A swami greeted me like he knew me and gave me shelter from the storm. In the morning I went down to the Holy river that flows from the lotus feet of the Guru and started to cry. I was home at last in pure love and devotion when I went under the water. The river sang to me the Nadabhrama the hum of creation. I would listen and she would take me into a light in my forehead. Then I knew t I needed a dot, so I found the red powder and got a dot. You are the dot of Her grace, all glory to the only Father Guru who is the Divine Mother herself here to feed us. The blessing is in the food that Sharada Devi gives you, she is the Black Sun. The white light of Avaloketeswara is the bird flying by my window. Thank you Tara for being here in person in the body of Sharada Devi. You lifted me out of the dark mud into the Mother light of your pure love.
    Karmapa chen ho. Namo Guru
    Bhagavan das

  6. Jai Ma Ganga!

    Yes Tapovan is in Rishikesh, north of the Laxman Jula bridge . It is very peaceful and calm! We are close to an ashram that we visit daily, we sing a “Hanuman Chalisa-Hare Krishna- Hanuman Chalisa” sandwich ! And they have three cows that get treated with pure divine Love ! Such a trip being out of American and seeing how life happens. Wishing you safe travels and we are here to greet you with open arms.

    Om Shanti Shanti Shanti 🧚‍♂️

  7. Amazing Grace is this mornings song of choice from the universe. Heart Verse.

    At the retreat in May, I couldn’t help but to look into the eyes of the Karmapa. His face was young and perfectly framed on the alter. I could feel his presence, his eyes never looking away from mine.

    You took my hand and told me with Your eyes that it’s time to go. Motherlight rounding up Her children, I knew immediately. Scared, Brave, Courageous, I will walk beside You in Love and Grace.
    Thank You Sharada Devi for Your relentless love and patience! For being a true example of what it means to be a Warrior.

  8. I love you so much, Ma. Tonight, I’m sending you my heart fully broken open for you…. Holding you in so much love and gratitude for your service. I will send along a little dakishna in the next few days to speed you on your journey. I would also love some information about your Indian retreat.

    Boundless love and many blessings,


    1. Dear Rudradas,

      Thank you sweet friend. I love you too…♥️♥️♥️Hope to see you soon,
      it’s been a long time!

  9. Dear Sharada Devi – I know this is off the subject but i can afford to send a donation to keep this thing alive and going.- I’ll send it to your email address or whatever you prefer with love and kindness. : ) I also found a dozen or so of your workshops on the internet archive and was
    very pleased.- It gave me more of an understanding on what some of it’s about. : ) Did u
    know that you can archive bullshit ?? (( Luv & Hugs ))

    Sincerely Diesel

    1. Dear Diesel,
      You’re so sweet! Yes I know about archiving bullshit! I do it all the time!
      Thank you for your support it’s extremely appreciated more than words can really say. Any donations can be made using PayPal to
      sending love and thanks! ♥️♥️♥️

  10. ♥️♥️♥️♥️♥️♥️♥️♥️♥️♥️

  11. I’m thinking that some people may not know how far a U.S. dollar can go in India and that even a small contribution, $5-!0, can be significant in terms of the India rupee. I was wanting to send $50 or $100 but just got a bill for $294.91 for car repairs, you never know, so I’m thinking something like $20 a month, for some months, and keeping track of your divine adventures and awesome poetry. The little boat (on the Ganges) offering and personal picture included is, in my opinion, awesome. I’m a crazy optimistic person so Om Namah Shivaya. What’s the way to get fund$ to you?

  12. Dear Sharada Devi Maa,
    OM. Obeisances. I just arrived by train into Rishikesh late last night. I came here for Shiv Rathri. I live in Oregon but I have been traveling through India on pilgrimage with two of my close friends for the last month or so but I am currently here on my own so I have nothing but free time to meet, chat, and connect with others. I appreciate what your doing and your unique approach. I’m here with an open heart and an open mind. If you would like to meet up and chat email me. I will be here for about a week maybe two. Maybe I can be of service in some way to your service. Thank you for being real and following what calls you. Jai Guru. Jai Maa. ❤️

  13. Dear Sharada Devi Ma,
    Happy Maha ShivRathri to you. I am a resident of Oregon but currently in Rishikesh at the moment. I’ve been traveling through India for the last month and a half with two close friends but came to Rishikesh on my own so I have nothing but free time to meet, chat, and connect with others. I’m here with an open heart and an open mind and if you are interested in meeting and chatting feel free to email me. I would enjoy meeting and connecting with you. I appreciate your unique approach to teaching. It feels authentic to me. Maybe we will even randomly bump into each other here. I’ll be here for another week possibly two. All glories to your service. Jai Guru. Jai Maa. ❤️

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