I write the words and it’s all about me. It’s my own demented inner world. I could never find a way to separate the wicked from the lofty, sexuality from spirituality or even me from you.
I’m a somewhat “non-functioning” human as I cannot exist, let alone thrive, in mundane reality-
nothing I experience is at face value, not you and not me. There are two sides to every story and I live in at least two worlds. Truthfully, sometimes I cannot remember if what happens at night while my body lies sleeping- was a dream or not. So being unable to block out the madness of what this is, I hear the words and I give a voice to something deep and primal- a mechanism of activity – you could say- that sees not good from bad- that only sees what transforms this into that.
Where the wicked and the lofty merge
and how I can define, embrace, and describe the places I find them- how powerful they are- and how valid each can be- minus the judgement and conditioning. I am not a prophet and I don’t claim to be the one who knows anything. I write down what I hear and I send it to you- it’s not channeling- it’s simply listening to the current we are being fed and that’s eating us. “It’s the zeitgeist of the moment” Bhagavan Das says.
We cannot go on “getting saved” ok?
Can’t you see that the shame, guilt and filth they have instilled in us through religion – that cause us to act out in fear and self loathing- this dirty thing called “desire” or sexual self expression- is the very shackles that keep us bound in servitude and self doubt?
Sexuality IS spirituality. That’s the answer for you. Become it.
And it’s not easy to deal with the chasm we face. It’s been so long that any of us are truly comfortable even being honest about how frustrated we are-how perverted our minds can be- our secret and forbidden fascinations-how our relationships fail- how he can’t kiss you really- and you won’t even look at the person you’re with as an extension of the ongoing issue that faces us. We don’t go deeply enough into ourselves- we don’t touch the center of our being. It’s complicated and it’s vital that we reclaim our fragments. This world is changing, we are being harnessed faster and tighter than ever. Stay warm, don’t get cold.
I only know what I’ve done and how I never question her voice in me. Ever. Because she knows in a way beyond sanity or reason…sure, she seems antagonistic at times and is intent on pushing buttons- but there’s something very true about her love and her sacrifice- which is, being hated by the tight and clenching fists of projection as the only possible chance to ever see your blue eyes shine or your brown eyes sparkle…
She has plenty to say and she’s wise. There is no shame in the body. There is no condemnation.
There is no way out but through. And maybe it looks and sounds scary or “evil” but it’s what we’ve done as creatures allowing ourselves to be controlled and subdued by religion up until now that has inculcated this dire misconception.
That’s why you’re still looking at pornography and it hurts, it’s not pretty. That’s why you still compulsively eat or over drink alcohol. Sexuality and how bad we are because of our “naughty” selves- is the reason we’re in bondage. You’re only human. It’s the gold that makes us pure…the alchemy that stirs our souls back together.
The fusion of emptiness and chaos.
A rocking inner peace that throws the world around you off kilter- but makes you the master of three worlds.
Don’t be misled…be the one who went crazy. This love of ours is crazy and wild. All knowing and perfectly innocent too. Not blind, but sees
in the dark with no boundaries based on illusion and proper behavior. Morality is etched in our hearts and nobody has to give us a rule book
on how to be loved by God in another or in ourselves. It’s our body and it’s not dirty-and when we see through this lie, we can breath again. We can be open to divine grace.
They’re idiots. Control freaks with big sexual problems- don’t let them be your guide….
Jesus cannot save you, he can only
bind you further- not because Jesus wasn’t a god man – but because of the religion he can’t be separated from. This is the time we are in-
It’s very difficult in our state of mind to really understand and embrace her love. For me, it seems she’s always trying to kill me- but I asked for it – and for her – it’s the results that matter- and how we arrive at those results-she’ll do almost anything to get you there. She never lets go once you call out to her- she’s horrifying and I’ve tried to leave her- but no, like a good mother, she’s always there….showing me there is nothing to fear…
And who is “she” anyway? Well, that changes. She’s the many faces of him. She changes to every circumstance. She’s everything really. And is the devil your friend? No. But you are giving power to that creation when you fear your dark places- like a taboo- and you’ll keep jacking off- headphones on, a screen in your face…it’s not you my dear friend, it’s the puppet’s floating shadow on your wall. And should you hate yourself for it? No. Understand your multidimensional being and work patiently and with love in every part that is burning. Don’t act out without awareness of what it is you’re buying into. Don’t define yourself by your mistakes or times of self abuse-you’re just working through this, that’s all.
She’ll never leave you and she’ll always show you how you’re giving your power away. Take back what you’ve disowned. I know it’s not easy- but it’s the only way to ever be free. My desire is for freedom at any cost. I can’t afford to be caged or controlled- manipulated or castrated. Tamed or subdued- neither can you.
This is our world, not theirs- and don’t you forget that. I am here for you always.
Curing or healing- what do we know-
we know everything- and we can do it. So rise and embrace the star of Venus. She led you all the way to me.
We will never be broken.