The alchemy of tantric transmutation is transforming emotional lead into energetic gold. We must weigh the balance of our lives between bondage and error versus grace and power. We are all addicted to movement. That’s what karma is. Shakti facilitates indiscriminately. Bodhichitta determines the results of our actions. Who is doing this and why are you doing this? By physically withdrawing from samsara as much and as often as possible you are able to begin the process of spiritual withdrawal from materialistic/social insanity. And by understanding the necessity of this mental and emotional detoxification, you are able to endure the fires of purification whose flames reach deep physical places where the past has been stored- and you are able to hopefully greet the hardships of this temporary discomfort as a genuine blessing although disguised for a time as something that is working against what you may think you want. The pain of this passage is that of withdrawal. You get the darkness blessed out of you. Not all at once and not once and for all. This happens incrementally at any level of meditation. But unlike any level of meditation, the discipline of a daily prolonged structure or a focused group or private retreat forces an inescapable entry, and eventual relationship, to the involuntary movements of passion, gradually transforming it into the voluntary movement of compassion. The generator that drives the realm of desire is entered and transformed. By re-establishing the true purpose of your life -you are withdrawing from the narcotic of distraction, of movement, and are forced to relate to reality without samsaric buffer. It is the threshold that is being guarded by a great wisdom. Only those who really mean what they pray for will be allowed to cross the line that breaks all the rules. The rules must be broken astrally for grace to descend. Grace must be ridden. We fall from the horse but the white horse is always there…you should always get back up.